While going through this period in my life, I have become kind of a selected extroverted-introvert. I have found this great supporting community on Facebook. I could never really relate to the majority of my peers. Me consumed in philosophy and esoteric sciences, they the latest fashion and status-quo. I was always myself but I used to be a person that couldn’t stand to be alone and now it is the thing I crave most. I love crawling into the recesses of my mind. I love exploring that thought space, the place where you lose the line between where you start and where the rest of the universe is. You are all things in that moment, there is no separation. That is when I found this place of equilibrium you see.
I have to admit that I am not exactly your typical hermit. I have naturally been an extrovert the majority of my life because my mom and dad taught me that it is just better to live life with an open heart and that EVERYONE is different, that makes you have something genuine to offer this world. Everyone knew my name because I talked a lot, I have always loved connecting with people and I never saw anyone as being any different from one another. But you see there was this girl then, that was extroverted because she wanted to fill an emptiness. She was running away from facing herself, from loving herself.
I think that whether you are introverted or extroverted the point is to not run from yourself. See there are some extroverts that are extroverted just because they want validation and approval of the deepest part of themselves. Also there are introverts who can’t stand the thought of society or the “crowd” not accepting them. The truth is, once you find a healthy self love there is no need to be extroverted to gain the love or approval of others and there is no need to be so introverted because you are comfortable, even if people don’t accept you as you are.
It all goes back to that self-gratifying love.
Once you have that it just naturally overflows to everything around you because you become the deepest truth to the universe and God. You become an embodiment of love.
